玲记在心: Last

This will be a very very long post. That's because this my last post about this.

Today, I will just write down everything.
I hope this is the last time I writing this.
I don't want any of this post anymore.

I should remind you about UT. Ya, I shall.
I reminded few day ago. You are forgetful. What about me?
Did I study? No. Did I remember? Ya, I remember it the day itself. In the morning.
When will you be the one to remind me? when will you be the one, to be the one that will take care of me? Only you can be forgetful, but not me. I am always full of reason and excuse. That might be the only thing you could remember about me. How many times I reminded you? How many time I send you 6P? I even put in thumb drive for you. When you ask for it, I never say no. Did you ever rmb what I did? How many thing I did?

1. Stayed overnight
2. Coax you when you are angry
3. Did not mind travel to your house
4. Find job for you
5. Accompany you
6. when you are ask me shut up and push my hand, I'm still stupidly stood beside you
7. When you no money take bus, who took out the coins when you did not even tell me to? . . . . . . .

Who would have think for you? I did almost all I can. I think I really did my very best for being a friend for you. I even did the first call when I thought you might need it. Did you remember? Or did you not? When you are angry, what's in your mind? When you are angry, How i feel? You always complain. You have the right to get angry. Are you in your own world? You always say it's them who turn you become like that. hey, am I one of them?

I'm keeping quiet most of the time now. You are always blaming me, You won't know the story behind of everything when you are pointing finger at me. I don't see the reason of explaining as it's not even important anymore. It'll still happen. Rmb You told me b4 you have big ear? Now, You are covering up your ear, I'm covering up my mouth too.

Sometime you make me laugh. Ya, you did. But it won't do me good too if you also make me went crazy. In doubt and sad, vexed and tired. Did you say you will change? The first time, I trust. The more promise you make, I still believe but I just believe without hope. If I'm not even worth, why not just tell me str instead of keep saying you will. Do not keep trying to light a wet candle in front of me, It only hurt. If you do not need me, just tell me. I'm clever. Or maybe I'm stupid to you. I am prepare to have a friend like you for a lifetime. But are you?

If you think I'm worth, you should hold tight. If otherwise, just tell me. I don't need you to change at all. You just have to put in some bits of effort to understand me. With understanding, You would have know my every action. You will not have angry etc don't you?

Know the real me. If not, you will just see a dark pieces of paper. you can never ever see what's written on that pieces of paper. The black is covering the ink. If i can bear and accept who you are, then why are you not accepting what who I am? Or are you not even interested? I see my attitude changing.

You are still perfect. Just that, I'm changing. Changing to the time in september.
I found the solution.

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For you.
I have nothing much to say about.
Sometime you say I'm not listening to you.
Sometime, you are not listening to me too.
Just that you did not know.
Most of the time, You are in your own world.
you must take note of the thing happening around you, the people.

You know me, you know that I do not like expressing myself.
I hide everything. Even now, I'm still hiding. That's me.
I thanks you for always able to text me when you saw how sad is my post.
All the thing you did, I have it noted down.

You get angry too. But after awhile you will think again and then peace.
I did not angry with you anything. Really.
I like it. We are always in peace most of the time which I think is good.
I did not blame you for anything.
Just wanted to say, I'm sorry if I missed you calling me.

To be true, we did not have heart to heart talk before.
We may have doubt of wondering will we able to be lifetime friends?
It take time. I'm prepare to take you. Let nature take it courses.

I found the solution too.