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Tuesday, March 31, 2009


玲记在心: Searching

There are time where I need someone to listen to me, beside me.
Something just could not be share to parents.
I normally will look at my HP contact and then start choosing.
Those people will be the one that I contact most of the time.

Yet, I call none of them.
Why?
Some are too close, till they speak rubbish which make me feel vexed even more.
Some just have their own trouble too and when I speak to them,
I could care about their trouble more than mine.
Some just always wants to see me yet did not know what to do after that.
Some even worst, act as they care.

I could feel if a person is really listening, caring.
If a person really wanted to find me, it's not that hard.
I have Hp 24hr on, (unless I off it due to "YOU"!)
They know my house address and my house Phone No.

Some of them could not find me when they feeling sad and then I was blame.
Did they ever feel that, at that moment I needed someone too?
When i'm down, I still speak to no one and then I still care.
Speak to me and I would still smile, laughing to you.

Don't tell me that I can find you.
Because you are not that one who could save me.
Understand me.
You just disappoint me a lot a lot.
When you thought I'm the one who keep doing that to you.

I should not have share so much in the first place.
I should not have beileve you in the first place.
Because you're also the one, who fly me high and drop me to death.

Did you ever ask what happen?
Did you ever took the words I told you seriously?
You put yourself first more than others.
You don't love to share.
You love to use "words" or whatever $hit to hurt, attack.
When other did not do it to you, you thought you are right.
Fact is, they just dun want to hurt as must as you hurt them.

No one will hurt the one they care, the one called "Friends".
Then do you really know what are "Friends"?
You told me so much which I keep believing.
Till you show me everything.

I'm use to it for being blame.
I can't feel anything, anymore.
I'm the one who keep trying to save.
Till I have forgotten how to save myself.
And you are not even there to help when you thought you are.
You are just trying to break me away from problem without notice that,
the problem remain.

I know how to solve.
But I could not get any support from you.
Then I face it alone.
I did not know how and what to type anymore.
Everything freeze to death.